So, why am I doing this?

I guess this is the  'big question'.  Why go through with brain surgery?  I have been asked this a fair bit and asked myself the same question a lot.  The simple answer is 'to find out.  To find out whether this works or not.  There is no guarantee that this surgery will work but it may.  I may find an answer to my tremors,  I may be able to write, I may not shake.  Then again,  it may not work and I may still shake at the end of this.

I am doing this because I want to know.  It isn't because I am not happy in life,  I am,  very happy in fact,  but I see this as an opportunity,  an opportunity to live without a tremor and without the discomfort and difficulties or brings. 

If it doesn't work then I will be ok.  It will be hard to take initally but I will be ok,  I always am in the end.  If it is one thing that growing up with my tremor has taught me it is resilience and strength.  I have learnt that the important thing is not how many times you get knocked down but the number of times you get back up.  Ultimately,  I always get back up. 

Am now relaxing in hospital and waiting for everything to begin tomorrow.

Cheers

Two days to go and sporting a new look..

So, it is two days to go and time to sport a new hair cut. After meeting the surgeon a couple of months back and finding out that they would need to shave some of my hair, resulting in me looking like Friar Tuck I decided that I didn't want to go with that look so did the huge thing and went for the big hair cut.

Surprisingly I actually quite like it. Head feels a bit cold but I don't mind the super short hair cut, espeically given that initially I was more freaked by losing my hair rather than the actual surgery :)

So two days to go. In hospital in 26 hours...

Three days to go...

Yep, as the title says, three days to go. Three days until my deep brain stimulation surgery, three days until I find out if there is an answer to my tremor that I have lived with now for well over twenty years, three days until I find out which way my life might turn.

It might be a bit late to start a blog about this journey given there are only three days to go but I guess it is a case of 'better late than never' and I have realised in more recent times that something that I have been playing down, after all it is only 'brain surgery', is actually a big deal. Not only is this brain surgery but if it works, has the potential to change a fair bit of my life.

So, three days to go. Currently feeling pretty good about it, a bit anxious but feeling ok. 

I am going to use this blog to share my journey with deep brain stimulation surgery but also to share the journey that has taken me to this point, to the decision to go through with the operation in the first place. I hope that some of my experiences may help others out there or share with those that know me parts of my journey that they may not know.

So as far as surgery is concerned, three days to go...and 47.5 hours until I check into hospital. Bring it on :)