So, why am I doing this?

I guess this is the  'big question'.  Why go through with brain surgery?  I have been asked this a fair bit and asked myself the same question a lot.  The simple answer is 'to find out.  To find out whether this works or not.  There is no guarantee that this surgery will work but it may.  I may find an answer to my tremors,  I may be able to write, I may not shake.  Then again,  it may not work and I may still shake at the end of this.

I am doing this because I want to know.  It isn't because I am not happy in life,  I am,  very happy in fact,  but I see this as an opportunity,  an opportunity to live without a tremor and without the discomfort and difficulties or brings. 

If it doesn't work then I will be ok.  It will be hard to take initally but I will be ok,  I always am in the end.  If it is one thing that growing up with my tremor has taught me it is resilience and strength.  I have learnt that the important thing is not how many times you get knocked down but the number of times you get back up.  Ultimately,  I always get back up. 

Am now relaxing in hospital and waiting for everything to begin tomorrow.

Cheers